Thank you so much to you all for replying back to me I really appreciate it.
I’m so glad that use have reached out and can help me as right now this is possibly one of the hardest things I have ever dealt with and if I’m honest I’m not coping very well.
It’s nice to know that other people feel how I do and honestly I just feel as much as I am happy for these people on the next chapter that my chance was taken from me.
I’m trying to be open with my close family and friends If I’m honest I just don’t want the 21 questions or the feeling pity for me so I’ve only told a few people.
But then on the other hand I feel like so much more can be done to help people like us out like I never even knew what an ectopic pregnancy was that was never said to me until I was at the hospital and has been admitted
Swanwars2206 I’m here if you need to talk sometimes I think speaking to people who have been through it or going through it can help that’s why I reached out on here
I’m sorry you’ve gone through this and I hope you can get through it 
Emilymilani im so sorry your going though this and to still have this going on for so long
5 months and you had the injection I’m so sorry your going through this horrible situation have they told you what could be causing your numbers to go back up??
And that’s the scariest part is the not knowing wether your numbers are dropping or wether any pain or stuff is my tube rupturing this whole experience has terrified me and I’m still going through it I ended up in A&E on Saturday because the blood clots were massive and the pain was unbearable but it eased off and I got told it could be contractions as my body is pushing it out the only good thing is my numbers are going down but then it makes me have a mixture of emotions knowing that this will all be over
I’m so scared of what I can eat, what I can and can’t do and as for sex I don’t even wanna think about it but then I’m scared that I’m gonna push my fiancé away because the thought of sex is scaring me so much because I’m worried it could happen again or something else
I hate these feelings and I wonder why me so much
If you ever need to talk I’m here 
Thank you so much for replying to me EPT host 20
The emotions and the crying I can’t control I’ve cried so many times I even cried reading what use replied to me
It’s gonna take a while to process it all because my journey has been a whirlwind
I think that’s worrying me to being around other family and friends who at the moment don’t know and that questions when you having a baby comes up I reckon I’ll break down as much as I want people to know right now I wanna focus on me and getting myself okay
I do feel I need to reach out and talk to somebody because I know it’s normal to feel sad and upset but no body tells you how you really truly feel like within your body, your deep rooted emotions
The resentment
The thoughts and feelings
But most of all it’s hard to explain exactly how you feel because most people don’t understand
I find it hard to tell people this is what’s happening to me because they just look at me and go well it could be this or you tried this
I’m trying hard to deal with it the best I can but right now I feel so misunderstood and like I’m so alone dealing with this.
Covid-19 has not helped as all my scans, blood tests and stuff I was by myself and I had to be strong then but right now being strong feels so far away
Thank you so much for replying it means more than use would know xx