I celebrated what would have been your 1st birthday without you yesterday, surrounded by all our friends and family, at a 1 year olds first birthday party.
How different the day could have been if you were still here with us, a joint party, a double celebration? singing happy birthday was so hard for me, i do admit to saying your name in my head as we sang to ted, wishing you were in the same picture looking at your cake and candles but it just wasnt to be for me and you, Kira (your DS) will be 1 this same time next month and i will have a candle for you on her cake, people can look and wonder why she has 2 but the ones that love you will know why.
So happy birthday dear honey… i will never forget you even though you were only in my life for a few weeks you have taken over my whole world, you will be part of it for as long as i am on this earth and until i meet you again someday,
Keep watching over us and never stop showing me those little signs so i know you are still thinking of me too, it would break my heart to think that you would leave me all over again, i love you so much.
Thankyou for being my little angel, for allowing me to be your mum and for making me a better person, i am only sorry that i cant be with you just yet, but i know one day i will be holding you in my arms.
Until then, good night and god bless, mummy and daddy love you very much my darling…
xxxxx