For my beautiful angel, Shay
I love you so much and wish you were here with me today and everyday. Its been 22 days since you’ve gone and I miss you so much. I keep touching my tummy where you were and it breaks my heart. I think about you all the time and I cry for you everyday. I’m not coping very well with losing you and I wish I could hold you in my arms and make everything ok. You were so small, only 3cm long and only 8 weeks and 4 days old, but in the little time I had you inside me, I was truely blessed.
Daddy really misses you and thinks of you all the time too. Last night was the first time we spoke to each other about our feelings and Daddy held me and we cried for you together. We decided to name you even though we dont know if you’re a boy or girl and we both thought that Shay was a beautiful name for a beautiful baby. We have also decided to do a memorial for you, i’m not sure what yet, we’ve got to give it a lot of thought and make it really special.
Words cannot even begin to explain the feelings that I have right now. I miss you so much and i’m so sorry that I lost you. I hoped and prayed that you would be ok, that it was all a big mistake, but a terrible nightmare was unravelling and there was nothing I could do to save you.
Me and Daddy are going to tell your big brother Kyle all about you soon. We haven’t told him yet because Mummy has been feeling so sad and I know that Kyle is going to be really sad too. I need to try and be strong for him because I know how much he wanted you, so please if you can, watch over him.
I will write to you again soon my angel. I love you so much and i’m sending up a very big special kiss to heaven for you, as I do every night.
Goodnight Shay, sweet dreams beautiful,
Mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx