first anniversary of ectopic - april 12

i cant believe its been a year. i wanted to write a poem to show you how i feel but i can never find the right words to say i miss you so much that it hurts. you were only with me a few short weeks but you left your mark my heart is broken my dreams shattered, yet i love you with every part of my soul. i long to hold you in my arms instead i shall hold you in my heart and i am never letting go.

my heart yearns for you my baby, my arms to hold you tight. to hear you breathing through the night. never think you are forgotten for your mother will hold you near. i cry so many silent tears although to others i seem fine time has healed my wounded heart. they dont know that my heart is broken and that no amount of time can put it back together. i am no longer who i was i am your mother.

i love you my butterfly baby

mummy

:cry: That was beautiful. I’m so sorry for your loss. I hope that writing that poem helped as I’m sure it did. It made me cry. I hope you’re bearing up. I am feeling like you at the moment, the year anniversary of losing my baby is on Thursday. I’m dreading it, I really don’t know how I’ll cope… :frowning:

I had to comment on your beautiful words though.

Big hugs xx