I found out I was pregnant at the beginning of November, was having pains and on/off bleeding and ep was confirmed on 18th Nov. My right tube was rupturing and they removed it. I was deverstated and was down for weeks. I managed to take my mind off it with a project I was doing and that helped. With Christmas it help to distract me again, but now I’m feeling down again.
When I left the hospital they gave me the mini pill (also tried to get me to have the coil fitted, but I said no). I’ve been reluctant to take the pill, but have done so because I don’t think I could handle the worry of another ep.
My worry is do i ditch the pill and try again? I already have a large family, but I planned to get pregnant last time and I feel so empty and sad all the time. I got confusing information from the Drs in hospital. One told me that I would be fine to try again, yet the dr who did the surgery advised that my left tube looked ‘sticky’ because of the blood in my abdomen from the rupture. I don’t know if I should even try??? I don’t want to feel like this all the time.
I’m so confused xxxx
Also, it took nearly 2 years to conceive one of our children and I know what the hurt and disappointment feels like month after month, I wouldn’t like to have to go through that again.
But the void is awful. I would of been having my 12 week scan about now.
Feel like I can’t win 
I just wanted to give hope. This time last year I wasn’t drinking. Methotrexate followed a week later with emergency surgery with my left tube removed on the 4th Dec 14. We just went with condoms and couldn’t start trying till I had rebuilt my folic acid levels. That started march and it was from May we started again with cb ovulation tests. If you haven’t had methotrexate you can start as soon as you feel ready. I conceived in August and I’m now 22weeks with a little boy bubbling and wiggling in my tummy as I type this. What a difference a year makes. I’ve had the worries and been down l but just don’t give up. My first child and 35yrs so I was really beating myself up. And to be honest only since the 21 week scan and feeling him kick have I relaxed and now enjoy pregnancy. So keep going. 2016! New start and new lives ahead x x x