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I wrote on here maybe 10 days ago. My ectopic pregnancy was confirmed Thursday 13th April at 7 weeks pregnant. I thought I was fine and was more angry the hospital hadn’t given me more information on how I was being treated and what would happen to me. So first sought advice on people experiences.

I hadn’t really spoke about what had happened to me until I had my return to work interview on Thursday. I took 4 days off work and the first week back I was fine. But after having to recount everything that happened. I’ve realised I’m completely filled with emotion that I can’t even explain. I’m angry, I’m sad, I’ve become clingy. I’m exhausted. As soon as my ex boyfriend knew I was pregnant he didn’t want to know. So I’ve dealt with most of this alone. I’m worried my managers at work think I’m going nuts…I’ve always used work as a focus when things are tough. Im worried I’m looking weak. I’m all over the place, can’t focus or concentrate. I just needed a place to rant.

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Hi Kyliewhite13,

I’m so sorry for what you’ve been through. I think it’s normal to go trough the different emotions you’re going through. I had an ectopic that required emergency surgery. I’ve been through a range of emotions, at first I felt happy to be alive, then wow I could have died, saddness and grief kicked in later as well as anger. These things take a long time to process. Are your work collegues supportive? It sounds like you went back quite quickly, could you see your doctor and ask for some time off, or possibly work could make adjustments, like reducing your hours for a while. You aren’t being weak, it’s normal to feel a bit all over the place and in my experience emotions have taken time to come to the surface. 5 weeks on and I’m on the mend, but have up and downs. I think being open to friends and family has helped me a lot. Take care of yourself and put you first. xx