Hi everyone,
I am just after some advice please. I had a missed miscarriage in January this year which went on forever with the hospital cancelling surgery etc until I finally got it at the end of March. Then in July this year I thought I was miscarrying again as I was bleeding so went for blood tests and an external and internal scan at my EPU. They said my hcg levels were 2500 and something so wanted to do a scan as they said just because they were high doesn’t mean it’s viable, it could mean it’s growing somewhere else, like ectopic. At the scan they said everything had completely passed and deemed it a complete miscarriage and discharged me. 2 weeks later I went on holiday to Tenerife with my husband and 3 year old. Whilst there I was in extreme pain and had a really odd feeling of fullness and eventually was struggling to walk. I fainted 4 times over 24 hours and went to an A&E department on the island where I deteriorated quickly. They did scans and a CT scan and figured out that I was bleeding internally and had a ruptured ectopic pregnancy. They told my husband I was critical as had bleeding in every space of my abdomen and needed emergency surgery at the hospital on the other side of the island. They told him to ring my parents and for them to fly out. I was blue lighted to the hospital on my own as my husband couldn’t come because my 3 year old wasn’t allowed in the ambulance. When I got there I was in and out of consciousness and they took me straight for surgery. When I came around I was in intensive care and they told me they’d had to remove my left tube, I’d lost 3 litres of blood and had 3 transfusions. The baby had been about 11 weeks in size. I am now anemic and have a severe folic acid deficiency which I am on medication for. This has been extremely traumatic for all of us all. My daughter saw it all as there was nobody to take her away from it and she worries about me fainting again and comes in to me in the night etc. I have been diagnosed with PTSD and am having therapy. My doctor signed me off for a month which is just about to run out and has just signed me off for another month (she wanted to do 6 weeks but I feel too guilty). My doctor and therapist have both said I’m not ready to go back. I work in a school and am often hit/kicked/ dealing with poor behaviour. The thing is, I’m feeling really guilty about having that much time off work and worried about what people with think, even though everyone has been really supportive. Just wondering if anyone else has been through something like this and can offer any reassurance? Thank you.