Thought I would start next month’s board, do its up and running. Xxx
Hopefully I will see less of you at the end of the month Xxx
Loads of baby dust to you all.
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All the best to you guys hopefully I will join august t t c I hope x
Still nice to see your posts cdandy.
I’m currently chilling on the sofa with the treats hubby brought me. A box of my favourite biscuits and a bottle of my favourite black cherry cider. I don’t normally drink a lot and not at all whilst ttc but as today is cd1 and hubby trying so hard, I can’t say no. Lol.Xxx he even chilled it. Xxx
I’m fine about af, hubby is gutted but at least it avoids the difficult conversation with my friend. Xxx
Hi Beck, Enjoy your treats sounds lovely, still waiting for my first AF although got weird spotting grrrrrr… my DH been digging up the garden all day for the patio. I’m still trying to get myself together. Have a lovely jot bubble bath and treat yourself before TTC xxx
Oh I am lol.Xxx
Bec:
Oh I am lol.Xxx
Good plan xxx 
all the best for this month xxx keep in touch. Ps never heard of black cherry cider!
It’s like alcoholic cherryade, very moreish. Had 2 bottles now. Please ignore any more post tinight- I’m a lightweight lol.Xxx
Hope they are little bottles lol… I’m imagining 2L ones :shock:
No little ones
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Phew…
Enjoy your evening xxxx
Can’t believe may is over with already. We’re in for ttc June. Although I reckon it will be at least July. Not holding out much hope for this cycle (don’t feel any symptoms). Good luck all x
First day of a mammoth 8 week half term. Missing hubby, little lady and my bed already .
Think it’s going to be a long day. Xxx
Take care bec xxx
Good luck all x
My son’s passport finally came today (after much drama) so maybe we’ll get a holiday baby. Who knows! My ds was a post holiday surprise so hopefully it can happen twice 
we’re all in the same room though so may be tricky! :shock:
How exciting kew. Xxx
I love the idea of a holiday baby. Xxx
Hi all,
I’ve been back to work too and with husband away, waiting for af and stress of work today I had a little meltdown tonight. Can’t believe that after so many months I’m still struggling. I’m not very good about being open with how I’m feeling and then it all comes out in one go. Thankfully a friend was on hand to help but I’ve reached a point where I thing I need a little more help. I was going to call my doctor tomorrow but I’m scared about admitting I’m not coping and therefore I’m worried about getting the right support. Has anybody had counselling before? I’m scared about what it might bring up.
Thank you all for the support you’ve already shown - this forum is such a safe haven for me at the moment.
Fran xx
Thinking of you, Fran. I’m like you, I don’t talk easily about my feelings and tend to have meltdowns occasionally. I’m getting better at letting it out gradually with a few trusted friends. Funnily enough, I’m a counsellor myself. Any counsellor worth their salt will go gently with anyone who’s grieving and certainly won’t open up old wounds then send you home vulnerable and gutted. It’s a gradual process. Just make sure you go by recommendation from a trusted friend, doctor or clergy person (whatever suits you best). Not something you should choose out of the phone book!
Thanks Chez23! After lots of tears I’ve managed to schedule a phone call with my doctor tomorrow and then I’ll take it from there. Hubby home tonight too - so hoping I’ll get through the last few days of waiting for my af. Feel so tired now having let it all out! Xxx