After a fortnight of pain and bleeding my ectopic was discovered 5 days ago, but given that my obs were ok and Im fit and healthy the registrar suggested taking the expectant route re treatment. Been back today and Hcg has fallen dramatically down to 59. Still bleeding heavily with huge clots which is apparently a good thing as it means everything is being flushed out of my body. I feel lucky that I’ve avoided methotrexate/surgery, but now i’m terrified this is going to happen to me again. Im in my early 30s and always took for granted that it would be an easy process when we decided to have children, but now I just feel unbelievably ignorant and like this is my punishment for being so blasé about it. I read that I now have to wait three months before TTC again so that the risk is lowered. Sorry for rambling on, I don’t even know where i’m going with this or what I want in response, I just need to tell somebody else who is experiencing the same thing as me how I feel.
I’m sorry you’re going through this right now. I just wanted to say I can empathise. I am just 33 and have spent my 20s trying to avoid pregnancy. We decided to try last November and other pregnant the first time only for it to end 11 weeks later in miscarriage. We then tried again and got pregnant quickly but it was ectopic (treated with methotrexate). However you go through this experience (surgery, methotrexate, or expectant management) it’s awful. Over the past 9 months I’ve been thinking if only we started earlier etc etc etc. But of course it doesn’t help me now.
I suppose what I’m trying to say is: this is an awful situation physically and emotionally and I get how you feel. If you can try to be good to yourself and I’m here if you need to talk.
Today is a good day for me so trying to enjoy it while it lasts! We’re now looking towards the next attempt of ttc (in September) so trying to remain hopeful that all that has happened was just really bad luck and not a sign of some underlying problem.
How are you feeling? Will you have another blood test this week to check Hcg? I found the repeated blood tests one of the most difficult things emotionally. Hope you are feeling ok today.
I’m good thank you, beginning to feel normal again. Latest hcg was 19 so one more blood test and I should be ok to be discharged.
We will also start ttc again in September and like you am crossing everything that it was a one off bad luck situation. The thought of it happening again is soul destroying isn’t it? Xx
I’m really pleased to hear the numbers are going in the right direction for you and that the hospital visits look likely to end soon. It’s good to hear how positive you sound and that you’re starting to feel a bit more normal.
So hopefully we’ll be “meeting” again with good news in September ttc.
