Don’t Think I Do Not Grieve

Don’t Think I Do Not Grieve

by Brenda Penepent

Don’t think I do not feel;

because you see no tears.

A river rages deep inside

of grief, and loss, and fears.

Just because I do not cry now,

don’t think my heart’s not broken.

I keep inside the misery

of words not to be spoken.

Sometimes I smile, or crack a joke,

so you won’t see the pain;

or notice how my hands will shake,

or how I’ve gone insane.

Each time I chance to think of her,

my heart is ripped asunder.

The loss I feel is mine alone.

you will not see my thunder.

D.J. Enright – On the Death of a Child

The greatest griefs shall find themselves

Inside the smallest cage.

It’s only then that we can hope to tame

Their rage,

The monsters we must live with. For it

Will not do

To hiss humanity because one human threw

Us out of heart and home. Or part

At odds with life because one baby failed

To live.

Indeed, as little as its subject, is

The wreath we give –

The big words fail to fit. Like giant boxes

Round small bodies. Taking up improper room,

Where so much withering is, and so much bloom.

That first poem is amazing - it says what I feel like saying (but won’t) into words.